Really?

So this morning I was dying to see Ben and just kiss him and hang out but of course he had to come in my house questioning me why I was already dressed... Are you fucken kidding me? I got really mad because I had pictured us laughing and CUDDLING but oh well... I don't understand why we can't seem to be on the same page... In addition I found out he lied to me about something stupid so it makes me wonder what else could he be lying about? I feel like moving in now wouldn't be the best thing for us right now but I also don't think I want to live with Maria anymore, I want a small place to myself where I can do all I want to do and have anybody I want. Now I'm doing some research about low income housing to see if I can afford anything on my own... I don't want to be messed up with Amanda and leave her hanging by not moving in. Maybe I should still give it a try with Ben and see what its like to live with him, who knows maybe he will be a different person once I'm there